Monday, February 7, 2011

in a weird spot

so if I've learned anything in the last nine months, it's been that grief is utterly unpredictable.  we were warned from the beginning that life with Malachi would be a rollercoaster--one that we would never want to be on.  as true as that was, I'm learning that life AFTER Malachi is even more of a rollercoaster.. with steeper hills and sharper turns.

once again, it's like i'm back on the frontlines.  my memory is absolutely awful right now.  tears come and go unexpectedly--sometimes weeping.  pastor talked on sunday how God first gives the gift of affliction to prepare us for more grace in order to give the gift of exaltation.  praying for growth during this time of affliction. 


  1. I don't have a great response for you that I could write on here but I didn't want to let that stop me from letting you know that I care about you and will continue to pray God's blessings on you.

  2. 3 Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort,
    4 who comforts us in all our affliction, so that we may be able to comfort those who are in any affliction, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God.

    I have been tempted by despair, but our Pain has a bigger purpose than us, and while there is the slight risk of being consumed, the reason is always His Glory. Shine. Be real, but shine. We are surrounded by a great cloud of witnesses with this testimony.

  3. Thank you for sharing the OK and the not so OK moments with us. For those of us...who have not walked through it...but hope to minister to those who have, you give great insight.
    Hold fast friend...

  4. Malachi is always with you in your head and heart. I think it is great to write down or talk about the good, bad, indifferent just to keep those memories going. Often times Phil and I will just talk back and forth about random things just to spark each others' memories. They say time heals, but I'm afraid it doesn't I know we haven't traveled very far on this journey, but God has a plan and we must trust. Praying for comfort.

  5. I have no words for you. But I will give you a big virtual hug and pray for you my friend. Psalm 30:5 says though our sorrow may last for the night our joy comes in the morning.

    Be blessed