When Malachi was alive, I clung to John 9:3 which states that a certain man was born blind so that the works of God would be displayed in him. In this case, God revealed His glory in physically healing the blind man.
Obviously, with Malachi, God chose to NOT heal him physically. So I was disappointed, let down, betrayed even. I truly believed God would heal our baby or give us the necessary strength to care for him. I was left dismayed, wondering, defeated.
Then it was as if the Holy Spirit was speaking to me directly:
What if the GREATER glory is the healing of Malachi's parents?!?!
I have been very challenged with this revelation. Sitting around and wallowing in what God didn't do is clearly not bringing Him the glory that He deserves. Instead, I am called to live a life of brokenness--embracing it with all humility. My desire is for complete healing in this life, but if I can better serve my Savior in grief and sorrow and find joy in that place, then I pray for changed desires.
God could have healed my baby in a heartbeat.
But I think He's got something greater in store...
Amen. I can't even begin to imagine how you must feel, but I can assure you that Christ knows. He knows how you feel and how you think. He wants you to rest in Him and trust that He is working all of this for your good and His glory. He will heal your heart and grow you in even greater ways than He has already. I'm praying that as you move from one day to another, you will truly find joy in the journey. Keep shining for Him. -Mea
ReplyDeleteAnd not only his parents, but what if the greater glory is healing those who Malachi's life touched?
ReplyDeleteI pray for you often friend. Malachi isn't forgotten in our home. ♥
We had a miscarriage with our first baby. I was clinging to Psalm 84 "no good thing will he withhold from those who walk uprightly" and couldn't understand why God would withhold this "good" thing. Eventually (after many months) I came upon Psalm 73 where it says "it is good for me to draw near to God" and I understood the true "good" that God was seeking to accomplish. I was drawn closer to Him through my pain--and that was good. Praying for you today!
ReplyDeleteWe had a miscarriage with our first baby. I was clinging to Psalm 84 "no good thing will he withhold from those who walk uprightly" and couldn't understand why God would withhold this "good" thing. Eventually (after many months) I came upon Psalm 73 where it says "it is good for me to draw near to God" and I understood the true "good" that God was seeking to accomplish. I was drawn closer to Him through my pain--and that was good. Praying for you today!
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