Today officially marks three months since Malachi died.
I specifically waited until the end of the day to make mention of this because part of me really dislikes that look of pity people get when they realize we've reached another milestone like this.
God has definitely given us the grace to fight this battle. It takes work to really focus on the truth of the situation and to be thankful that Chi is whole and healthy and complete in heaven with our Savior. The days that are the hardest continue to be those with milestones (like today) and those where I sulk in self-pity and feel sorry for myself dwelling on the fact that I have four children--only two of which currently have beating hearts.
Feel free to pray for me as I continue to trek on with this pregnancy. Pray alongside me for an increased attachment and love for this baby. I'm just not exactly where I thought I would be in that area with this child. I wholeheartedly believe that is a prayer God will answer.
On a lighter note, can you believe I've still got THREE MONTHS of growing ahead of me!??!